Lokatie Galerij Kunst vol leven .

Gedichten: 

• Wijshheid
• Experience
• Vriendschapliefde
• The pianist of our bodies
• Lost love
• Drowning
• Together at last
• Leven
• Come-pair

What a difficult, yet wonderful, year that this has been for me: This year has broke me mentally, emotionally, financially and physically.

Yet here I stand, stronger than ever, cause I survived. I’m proud of myself. It might not seem like I did much, but these mini goals mean a lot to me.

I’ve successfully completed phase 2 of therapy and I actually feel that I’m a better person because of it.

I feel that I’m more able to recognize my Ups&Downs, and I’m able to deal with my emotions better than before.

Now on with the future: phase 3 of therapy, here I come!

I haven’t been very active with writing this year, sorry for that, I miss it too.

When I did though, mostly I appeared in books:

OM TE GROEIEN ZONDER JOU https://www.heimdall-poezie.nl/catalogus/weekvdpoezie2020/

OM GELIEFD TE ZIJN (from 11min on) https://www.heimdall-poezie.nl/catalogus/corona/

VRIJHEID https://www.heimdall-poezie.nl/catalogus/vruchten-van-vrijheid/

Yes, all of this in Dutch. After 5 years of being in this country, I finally started professionally writing in Dutch! =)

Then BLM came…and yes, I came out of my shell once more:

There’s no “R.I.P” without justice & equality

https://www.dafneyasmin.com/post/social-anxiety-and-isolation

Yeah…sounds weird, but it’s true!

I didn’t win the contest, but hey, I was seen and appreciated for my work. Sounds like a win for me!

For the world bipolar day I wrote my first Dutch pieces (february 2019):

HOE GAAT HET? +-…EN JIJ?

Ik voel het meteen als het op komt…

Een seconde was het zomer, nu herfst.

Stemmingswisselingen komen, zo abrupt, en nu…?

Ik heb geen tijd om dit te voelen, ik moet doorgaan…maar waartoe?

Switch, swoof…

Zoals seizoenen ben ik nu ook verandert.

Ik hou ervan en haat het: het is mooi om te voelen, maar zo zwaar voor mij.

Hoe gaat het, vragen ze me…moeilijke antwoord moet ik zeggen.

Plus Minus…maar begrijpen ze me?

Ik voel me wind, ik voel me aarde…soms word ik vuur, en als het goed gaat, word ik water.

Stil…goed ademen.

Ik ben een mens zoals jij, dat alles voelt en is.

Zo…hoe voel je vandaag?

PLUSMINUS

Boven en beneden, zo zijn wij, zoals een hartslag.

Het begint klein en dan op eens kunnen wij vliegen, ver van de realiteit, buiten deze wereld.

Maar tegen welke prijs?

Alles dat naar boven gaat, moet ook vallen.

Leven stopt om te voelen.

Ja, die hartslag zijn wij en onze liefde voor het leven en elkaar.

• The first one represents the arrival of depression after being manic. How the mood swings affect my life and how I just have to accept and face it.
• The second one is how I see bipolar people. I’m going to get this tattooed XD

I hope you enjoy them as much as I did. Merry Christmas!

P.S. It’s imperative to follow your own path. Welcome 2020 with open arms.

bridge after the snow

Worldbipolar day Lady Dalyz

It has been a while since I’ve updated my “status” so…this is what I’ve been up to:                      

1. I’m back on medication…that is triggering by itself, and I haven’t stopped since my last episode.

2. I’ve started therapy…let me tell you: I’m proud of all the people that struggle with all those feelings that come up from reliving your traumas and triggers during therapy!

👏👏👏

That. Is. Tough! I’ve been having all these mixed episodes…

Some days I feel so overwhelmed that I don’t even know what I’m feeling! What I do know for sure, is that I don’t want to feel that way.

One of my biggest struggles is change, so…be prepared for some real triggering stuff in the near future!

3. I’ve collaborated with the multi-talented Martina Bertola.  <3

(part 1)(part 2)(emotionsdon’tscareme)(Animus&Anima)

4. I’ve been actively promoting my poetry/art (or whatever it is)…Waaaaay out of my comfort zone!

First was reading my poems for the Worldbipolarday in Haarlem…in Dutch! 🙈 (plusminus)   

I was so nervous, shaking and making mistakes, OH MY GOOOOD! Terrifying!

Expo “Poems & Pictures” Lady Dalyz

In May – June I had my second exposition, with pictures and poems that I hope went straight to the/your heart 😉   (Wijkcentrum Alleman)

Then went to a “Poeziemiddag” and decided to improvise and recite some of my poems, live, again! I must admit it went better, I’m proud of myself =)

That escalated into me doing it a third time…soon 😱:

Will you be there? I have a surprise for you! =)

(het nederlands blog initiatief)

Poëzie op het spoor

Het Nederlands Blog Initiative – Lady Dalyz